Building a Life Worth Living: Jornada del Muerto

I absolutely love this saying.  It means “dead man’s journey” or “Journey of Death.”
there’s a hollowness to living life solely for your own sake and your own happiness.  This is exactly what Paul was writing to the Romans about.  Losing your life to find it.  Now, I’ve heard many a hellfire and brimstone, good ole southern baptist preacher lay it down whilst preaching through Romans, but I always cringe a little at how wide and far they miss the heart of the matter – they just don’t get it.  For example,  this past week I was in a conversation concerning the military and the repeal of DADT, and how that fit in with my “Christianity”.    One of the people started quoting Romans 1 as a means to condemn homosexuality and “prove” that gays and lesbians were bound and destined for hell, the funny thing is, they turned to me expecting me to agree with them.    You see, what people fail to realize is the POINT paul was making.  We’ve become so wrapped up in “NOT DOING this or dressing like that or talking like him or …you get the idea”  We get so focused on our lists of things that we can’t do now that we are christians.  Wait what?  You there are things we absolutely can’t do as christians……NOPE!  Yeah, you heard me right, that’s why it’s called Grace.  You are FREE to do what you wish.  Here is where we come to the concept Paul was trying to convey.  Yes, you are free to chase after what you wish…to do what you want, God, knows what will satisfy you and what will bind you in chains.  If we are honest, its most often the things WE WANT that end up making us slaves.  I speak from the voice of weathered experience in that arena.
Romans 1:28 Furthermore, just as they did not think it worthwhile to retain the knowledge of God, so God gave them over to a depraved mind, so that they do what ought not to be done. 29 They have become filled with every kind of wickedness, evil, greed and depravity. They are full of envy, murder, strife, deceit and malice. They are gossips, 30 slanderers, God-haters, insolent, arrogant and boastful; they invent ways of doing evil; they disobey their parents; 31 they have no understanding, no fidelity, no love, no mercy. 32 Although they know God’s righteous decree that those who do such things deserve death, they not only continue to do these very things but also approve of those who practice them.
Now, just previous to this Paul spoke about men and women giving way to unnatural lusts. and here he puts that on the same level as people whom disobey their parents.  He’s saying, we are all Sinners, all of us filthy, depraved and wicked apart from the knowledge and love and grace and mercy of Christ Jesus.  Yes, we are free as christians, but what will you do with that freedom?
This is where I begin my journey of death.  I have known for quite sometime, years in fact, that I was called to the ministry; however, like I have always done when faced with a seemingly difficult path, to took the easy way out.  As an extremist, i do nothing half-way… I take everything to the absolute edge of reason and more often than not, jump off the edge into madness.  I arrogantly reasoned that I KNEW BETTER THAN GOD what my life could, would and should look like; so he let me have exactly what I had envisioned and all the consequences of the choices that i made.  THIS IS THE MOST LOVING THING he has ever done for me, apart from the WONDER OF THE CROSS!  I have learned more through my failings in running my own life and building this castle on the sand than I could ever have done had I always taken the RIGHT PATH.  There is almost no person, experience, group, place, hardship, pain, fear, etc., etc., that i cannot only sympathize with, but relate to because I myself have experienced it.  An, as HE has always done, he shows me in very real and very amazing ways, that held up against the way Jesus said we should live, the way I’m living mine becomes quite trivial and meaningless and His way looks intoxicating.
Dying…this idea has been on the forefront of my mind since my return from Iraq.  Most often not in a good way.  I’m not afraid of death, it doesn’t scare me or make me nervous.  In many ways it is comforting.  Crazy?  Not really.  When you think about it, it is by Death that we have Life.  Christ’s sacrifice of his own life for ours made it possible to for us to reconnect to him.  And, just as Paul said, “for me to live IS christ, and to die is gain.”  you can take this apart and look at it from several perspectives; first, the literal…for the Christian whose life is meant to mimic that of our Savior, which means bringing hope and LIFE to a broken and hurting world, living life means being Christ to the world and, when we die, we are simply relocating.
Then we can look at it in a much harder way.  Living for Christ, as Christ, through Christ and in Christ…knowing that whatever you do and wherever you go, he goes and does with you – cause that’s what He said he would do.  That’s when no matter how far we (I) run from Him, when I turn around, he’s right there with me…THINK ABOUT THAT THE NEXT TIME YOUR ALONE.  It’s the DYING part here that’s the hardest.  Dying to oneself is never easy and it certainly isn’t pleasant.  “Crucify the flesh DAILY, take up your Cross, and follow me.”  The Saviour is asking you to embark upon a journey, one that will be wrought with pain and suffering and hardship, one in which you will be reviled and hated and considered quite insane and one that is more fulfilling, more satisfying, more glorious and wonderful than you could ever possibly imagine.  Are you ready for the Jornada del muerta?